Last year as I was learning how to do seminary, one of the problems I had was in balancing all the different assignments, readings, classes, work study, and fun things to do in class. I struggled with what I should do, when I should do it, and how much time I should commit to each endeavor. By October I found myself lost in the sea of assignments and crazy new things that I was learning, both in class and out.
As a result, I acquired a possibly unhealthy talent of sleeping less, and then balancing the time I had leftover with reading and play. As My second semester began, I actually was able to stay ahead of assignments and readings, almost for the entire first month of class, but then I began to be weary with the effort of keeping up with all my studies, without the benefit of a proper release in my friends.
Granted, though the work load was harder, I felt that I was able to accomplish those things that I needed to do in my class. And because of my trial by fire the first semester I actually had learned how to do seminary. The second semester was not as hard, since I had actually learned how to write and gear my thoughts theologically.
Now as I begin my third semester, you would think that because I have had all this practice that I would know what to do now. But, that is not the case. How do I balance my studies with the rest of my life? How do I get enough sleep when I am having so much fun not sleeping? Granted, the readings get done, I get sleep, and I worship regularly.
But to go from here, with the friends that I have, how do I keep old friends, and make new relationships? It is a tenuous path to be sure. And it is a path which I feel is one, since it is so new, that I should pay attention to, to be sure that I am following the proper direction, one that will actually bring more balance to my life. I don’t need to disappear into a new world, the old one is one in which I had support and seeming balance.
But perhaps that is the challenge, in finding ever new ways to balance all the new things that I continue to learn about myself and the world around me. Perhaps the practice I had last year here at Div School was preparation for this new set of challenges in learning how to balance a life. Because it surely is a challenge to which I want to rise.